Reality

In the aftermath
I did not cry.
I did not shake, 
I did not scream.
It was surreal,
Happening to someone else
I could not believe
That this was me
I should be dead.
Sights and sounds echoed
Around my head.
I should be dead.
I did not feel anchored
But swaying in the wind
Ready to blow away at any second.
I did not understand
Why I was still here
But I realized 
As I stood on that bridge
And watched them take away
The wreckage of my mom's car
That I have a guardian angel
Who knows and loves me
And wasn't going
To let me give up just yet
And then I cried.

Spiritual Song

You may have noticed... but most of my blogs lately have been about change and leaving... guess I'm a little excited for graduation, hunh? This is a song that my coach plays at the end of the cross country banquet every year, when the seniors are being recognized for their years of dedication and fun with the team. I was listening to it recently, and it struck me how apt this song is. It conveys the sadness of leaving, as well as what a big step, a choice the rest of our lives are. This song is spiritual because it represents to me everything that has passed, with hope for the decisions that I will make in the future.

Time of Your Lives

Another turning point;
a fork stuck in the road.
Time grabs you by the wrist;
directs you where to go.
So make the best of this test
and don't ask why.
It's not a question
but a lesson learned in time.
It's something unpredictable
but in the end it's right.
I hope you had the time of your life.
So take the photographs
and still frames in your mind.
Hang it on a shelf
In good health and good time.

Tattoos of memories
and dead skin on trial.
For what it's worth,
it was worth all the while.
It's something unpredictable
but in the end it's right.
I hope you had the time of your life.
(music break)
It's something unpredictable
but in the end it's right.
I hope you had the time of your life.
It's something unpredictable
but in the end it's right.
I hope you had the time of your life.

Victory

This a poem I wrote about beating that horrible disease that comes around this time of the year...senioritis.

I feel the walls closing in
I see the lights darkening
Just a spot left, up ahead
Always too far to reach
I know my time is running out
Yet I hold on, as long as I can
Reaching, straining, grasping
Not letting go of the tension
That keeps my body together
Keeps my mind focused
I will not give up
I will not give in
Not when I am so close
     to victory.

Community

After listening to Col. Vertz talk to us today about how much OM helped him in his career and how he never gave up on his dreams, no matter how improbable, it made me think about my life and my goals, and how OM has changed me. I can still remember walking into the school for the first time... being weirded out by all these strange american kids with their foreign accents actually cheering and showing school spirit... rushing around my first day of school, trying to make friends and fit in... I feel like that person who moved here from England is completely different from the person that I am now. I am so much more confident of myself and my abilities to relate to other people, I am more passionate about the things that I care about and I have found my place as a part of the community of OM. Would this change have happened to me somewhere else? Maybe. But I think that OM has shaped me and fueled my desire to be active in my community, given me the confidence to reach out to others and to trust myself. I can say with certainty that OM has influenced the person that I am. The amazing community and support that I have found here has inspired me, and I hope that one day I can come back to the Mill and share my success story to inspire other students to be the best that they can be.

Guru Amar Das

Guru Amar Das was born a Hindu in 1479. An eldest son, he was a farmer and a trader with a wife and four children. He became a Sikh in his old age, succeeding to the title of Guru at age

73. However, the son of the old Guru was resentful and kicked Guru Amar Das out of Goindwal. However, his followers pleaded for him to return, and after the previous Guru's son, unable to gather a following, left, Guru Amar Das returned to Goindwal. As Guru, Amar Das furthered the principles of Sikhism. He ignored caste boundaries, even before the Raja, and strove for the equality of women. Amar Das also made sure that any of his supplicant s received and created a Sikh soup kitchen. Goindwal became a center for Sikhism and many other faiths, who flocked to be near the Guru. He impressed Emperor Akbar, sending his son-in-law with a message that convinvced the emperor to leave the Sikh people alone against the wishes of Muslim and Hindu countrymen. In addition, Guru Amar Das started missionary practices, using women as well as men. He collected hymns and writings of several Gurus, including himself, in a book of religious scriptures in Punjab, so that all could understand. Amar Das' son-in-law, Jatha began the building of Ramdaspur (Amritsar), the holiest city in Sikhism. Guru Amar Das died at age 95 in 1574 after naming his son-in-law Jatha, whom he renamed Ram Das, as the next Guru.

Spiritual Song

I know I just posted one of these earlier today, but I was just talking with someone and reminded me of how this song is sort of my religion, or belief, faith, whatever you want to call it. I believe in absolute loyalty to your friends, and then when someone needs your help, it doesn't matter who they are or what they need. You should do everything you can to help and support them. This song embodies this idea because it is all about being there for someone else under any condition. 

Lean On Me
Sometime in our lives we all have pain
We all have sorrow
But if we are wise we know that there's
Always tomorrow

Lean on me when you're not strong and
I'll be your friend
I'll help you carry on
For it won't be long till I'm gonna need
Somebody to lean on

Please swallow your pride if I have things
You need to borrow
For no one can fill those of your needs
that you won't let show

Just call on me brother when you need a hand
We all need somebody to lean on
I just might have a problem that you'd understand
We all need somebody to lean on

Lean on me when you're not strong
And I'll be your friend
I'll help you carry on
For it won't be long till 'm gonna need
Somebody to lean on 

Just call on me brother when you need a hand
We all need somebody to lean on
I just might have a problem that you'd understand
We all need somebody to lean on

If there is a load you have to bear
That you can't carry
I'm right up the road, I'll share your load
if you just call me 

Just call me when you need a friend
Just call me when you need a friend... 

Spiritual Song

I chose this song as a spiritual song because we are reaching teh end of the school year, and it's a time of huge change. Seniors are getting ready for college, juniors are ready to become seniors, and everyone is saying goodbye to someone. However, we are all promising so many things--to keep in touch, to visit, to never grow apart. I think this song represents what many people are feeling as they look forward to the next few months and face their fears of leaving everything behind.

Permanent by David Cook
Is this the moment where
I look you in the eye?
Forgive my
broken promise that you`ll never see me cry
And everything
It will surely change
Even if I tell you I won`t go away today

Will you think that you`re all alone
When no one`s there to hold your hand?
And all you know seems so far away
And everything is temporary
Rest your head
I`m permanent

I know he`s living in hell
Every single day
And so I ask, oh God
Is there some way for me to take his place?
And when they say it`s all touch and go
I wish I could make it go away

But still you say
Will you think that you`re all alone
When no one`s there to hold your hand?
When all you know seems so far away
And everything is temporary
Rest your head
I`m permanent
I`m permanent

Is the moment where I look you in the eye?
Forgive my promise that you`ll never see me cry...

Animal Rights

Unfortunately, I had no voice in class yesterday, because there are so many things I wanted to say. So, here's my animal rights blog.

In response to Haley's point, on par with Grace, I am a vegetarian. However, I'm not a vegetarian because I believe that humans shouldn't eat meat. I believe that there is a balance to life, and that part of that balance is the predator-prey relationship. I am vegetarian because when I heard about the despicable living conditions of some animals who are bred for meat, I was appalled. By not eating meat, I am not supporting those practices and giving them less business, so that maybe, one day, if everyone joins such a campaign, we can stop such horrible conditions for animals completely. In keeping with my beliefs, I will eat free range meat. This is meat that has been certified that the animal was not raised in its own filth, unable to move because it was in a cage too small for it or packed so closely with other animals. Instead, the meat itself is healthier because the animal was had exercise, was given better food and had more room and better living conditions. I believe that animals, though they should not have the same rights as humans according to the constitution, still have the right to a good life and should not be killed unnecessarily. 

Procrastination

You know, this is that time of the year when seniors get a lot of heat for a particular activity they enjoy more and more--procrastination. Some even go so far as to call this pastime trend a disease; the dreaded senioritis. But why is procrastination such a bad thing? Does it really undermine core values of our society, such as hard work and justice? The answer, of course, is a big, fat no. Procrastination has a spiritual placement in the lives of every teenager and adult. It serves as a right of passage in the form of the infamous "senioritis" and and as stupefying meditation to enrich the brain through mediums such as facebook, online games, video games, and much more. Procrastination is not a curse, it is an art form that takes years of practice to perfect. It serves as a daily escape from the difficulties of life and offers much more enjoyable hours spent without worry. So the next time you think of procrastination, think positively of the wonderful influence it has on our society.

*Side effects of procrastination include but are not limited to lack of homework finished, failing grades, job loss and the severance of romantic relationships. Please procrastinate responsibly* 

Pirate Ethics

Although many people believe that pirates lived simply for plunder and adventure, killing any who stood in their way, there were some things even pirates wouldn't dare do. In fact, they had ethical codes, which they obeyed with fierce punishments for wrongdoers. Generally, pirates left women and children be, honored surrenders and avoided unnecessary killings. Rules were enforced with whip and knife, but any punishment was decided by the crew as a whole--pirate ships were mini, floating examples of true democracy. Although the captain held the wheel, so to speak, any man could challenge him for leadership and the crew could vote on just about every decision. Was this an ethical way to live? No more ethical than living in a corrupted bureaucratic system, gridlocked by its own complexities and misunderstood, and often misrepresented, by the very people it is supposed to serve. Our justice system, though less physically brutal, is no less harsh than the pirates'--at least they always got a second chance to prove themselves.